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Dishes

It is a major accomplishment when dishes get done after dinner in the Sampson household.

Tyler and I are not always the most clean people. We are not gross dirty people, but cleaning is not always a priority to us. It is one of those things in life that must get done, even if we don't want to do it.

The other day, I did as the spirit led. I did not accomplish my school work. None. Zip. I have been having a difficult time finding the motivation for my job, which in effect affects everything else in my life. I wonder if it is me, that I simply need to grow up, and do the stuff I have to do simply because they must get done. Be that housework or homework.

Where does my motivation for this need to come from? Intrinsic or Extrinsic? Does it matter? So if I get my school work done, can I justify a manicure? I deserve it. Or do I bank on the inner self-pride that I get from accomplishing a task?

I feel like this is part of becoming an adult. Of learning how to graciously suck-it up and do the tasks that must get done.

I just wish it was easier to grow up.

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