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Productivity

Does anyone else feel that they must be productive all the time?

Why do we get this way? Why do I get this way? Why am I this way?

The human condition does not require constant productivity. I feel ridiculously guilty over the fact that I am not productive nearly enough. It becomes this endless cycle of guilt, not doing, guilt, not doing.

Who cares if I am not doing something productive all the time? There isn't a productivity police around.

I desire to find the joy in life. I am a constant worrier. That zaps joy real quick. I have found that I need to be constantly telling myself to trust me. That I have made intelligent choices for the course of action I am undertaking.

How does one go about combating worry and self-doubt? How can one simply be?

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