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I don't  write enough. As in, I don't process my thoughts outside of my body enough. For Lent, I have decided to take on the task of writing something each day.

I have decided to also give something up for Lent. I want to give up complaining. I don't really know how I am going to do this. I figure that I should give myself some rules or parameters about what it means to complain.

Today on the bus, I saw a woman that I have seen several times before get on the bus. In my opinion, this woman gets on the bus and has this look about her that says, "all of you should feel so privileged to be riding the bus with me, so get up and give me your seat". I realized looking at her that I don't exhibit any sort of influence on how this lady gets on the bus. Why should I let this lady irritate me then? If I were to retell this story to multiple people, that would be complaining.

Rule 1: Complaining is bitching about stuff that I have no control over.

My decision to give up complaining has been largely influenced by my work environment. It is very easy to get into a defeated mindset, that why should I try? It doesn't matter anyway. But it does matter. I do possess control over certain aspects and can influence certain aspects of my situation.

Rule 2: If you are not part of the solution, then you are part of the problem.

I want my energy to be spent on being part of the solution. I don't want to be fixated on the negative.

My job might get a bit lonely though. Every teacher likes a good bitch-fest. I am going to have to be okay with that.

I am excited for this season of intentionality. I desire to live into the joy of life and I hope that this attempt to give up complaining will help me focus on this joy.

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